The man with this title means everything to me. He taught me how to ride a bike. He taught me about cars. We used to watch basketball together. We would just have really intelligent talks and go places together. He used to just bring me out so we could talk. Or we’d play basketball outside together. I was daddy’s spoiled little girl.

But now we’re both getting older and moving different ways. I’m a teenager and he’s growing older. Now all we do is yell at each other and fight. We don’t talk normally. We don’t play basketball together. We don’t bike around together. It gets me emotional yenno?

My dad is amazing and he’s done so much for me. I don’t ever want to lose him. One day I will make him proud. I will make him cry tears of joy. I will let him know how much he means to me. I will finally hear the words ” I’m proud of my daughter” come out of his mouth

One day.

Remember 10 years ago when I used to pray every single day and every single night.  Why did I stop? 

Remember 10 years ago where I used to swing my legs all the time. But, I’d make sure each leg got the same amount of swings, just because I wanted it to be even.

Remember 10 years ago when I would spend my time exploring the house and getting in trouble for using the new clean sheets to make forts in the living room.

Remember 10 years ago where you used to call your mom and dad, mommy and daddy? But you tried to top because you thought people would make fun of you.

Remember 10 years ago you thought “shut up” was a bad word. Then you learned how to curse.

Remember 10 years ago where you’d promise yourself once you’re old enough you’re gonna join church choir because you knew you had a beautiful voice.

Remember 10 years ago where you cried cause of palo LOL. and not cause of some asshole.

Remember 10 years ago where you and your cousins would hide under the tables during parties cause you were that cool.

Remember 10 years ago where you hated seeing people sad. 

Remember 10 years ago where nothing even mattered.

Anonymous asked: Explain how much you like the guy you like out of 100, and explain why you like him.

juan~handred 

Yes, it may sound stupid. But we are talking about liking here. first, he makes me happy. WHOAHOOHOO. true story. Being with him makes me all nervous. talking to him gets me all smiley. fuck man, people at school who see dis. dont mock me. yolo. WAT.

okay. first of all. I enjoy talking to him. even when I’m pissed and my effort is so low. He always tries to make it more entertaining even when im being a bitch. we talk about stupid things. and as much as I want to slap him when he says yolum. I dont even care. When our convos are dead. yeah, that’s only happened like twice. and that means someone fucked up or the other persons just being a douche woooot.

Anyways. He makes me happy. he makes me smile. whoooaa so cliche. shatap. its true. you cant be uncliche if its true. he’s rude do. putting that smile on my face to show people the hideousness of my smile. OH OKAY </3 damn what am i saying. anyways. like goodmorning’s from him starts my day good. or like. when we skype. iunno. If i just look at him i unno i cant help but smile. He is charming. asdfghjkl;

nuuu uh yo. and of course. he cute. he cute. like nikks did you see what he was wearing today. OHOLA. ano. wat. okay. YEOLAO.

I cant stop thinking about that butthead. I don’t know what exactly he has. but I honestly can’t stop thinking about him. he’s like part of my daily kinda thing. There hasnt really been a day where i havent talked to him in a loooong time. ish yeah. Iunno. I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS. ITS JUST. HES HIMSELF. AND HE MAKES ME HAPPY.

I like hanging out with him like  its been awks since its only been a few times we’ve actually hung out out of school but sall good. oh and yenno. his hand. nice to hold, nice to hold LOLOLOL.  I go downtown with him cause we cool we cool.

honestly. i dont know its like puppy love right there LOL. I think of him all the fucking time. It gets annoying cause i’m just smiling there and my parents get suspicious. or when i get up i just think about that fucker. I DONT KNOW WHY. 

To sum it all up. He is him and I like him for him. From the way he talks, acts. I mean, he’s charming. He can be a totes gentleman. weemeen. hahah anywayss. He makes me happy. He knows how to put a smile on my face. I appreciate how much effort he puts in, well, us. It’s not just him and I its now us. opijuehygrhsd love dat. LOL. He’s cute too. whoop bonus. I like his smile. Oh and he doesnt have such a high ego. but he has i guess confidence. He tries. like I can see it. when we have a misunderstanding he’ll try and help to fix it. he wont just leave it at that fak. I dont know what i missed but i could go on forever. but that’d mean id have to repeat stuff. cause im confusing like that. yolo LOLOL

OKAY DAS ALL C: 

lool. “best” walked me halfway home today even though he could’ve gotten off a stop before me. Iunno yo. It actually does mean a lot to me. Yenno, make that extra effort just so I got home safely I guess. Jerrick couldn’t but that’s okay. It was nice talking to Tony even though we didnt really say much lol. From Kindergarten to now. I haven’t really realized how good of a friend he really was. Well no. I guess I could say I haven’t realized how much of an asshole I am to him. EVEN THOUGH I’m joking mostly all of the time. To think of it I don’t recall him ever being an ass to me. Like even Shirley is an amazing friend and I dont realize the shit I put her through. and Alyssa too. But her and I never really talk at all anymore, it’s actually really awkward now. ANYWAYS.

I feel bad actually. All I did before like mid last school year was bash on him. How he was wasting his time on a girl that doesn’t deserve him. I guess I could’ve just said that to him instead of being an ass to him for liking her. I was being a selfish ass. Then he’s telling me how we barely payed attention to him last year. I think Shirley and I kinda took our own way. like we werent in any class together so that wasn’t helpful. But since we didnt he went to the other people. It’s true though. I never really thought of it til now. But Iunno walking home was nice. Nice weather we’re having LOL. Then like halfway walking  after telling him I can manage the rest for the billionth time hes like okay hug though. oh he has nice hugs. bitch wouldnt let go LOL joking. It wasn’t a gay ass hug. Nor was is short. But aoieuhrtejrwteqrws  I’m an ass to him. I honestly haven’t really hung out with him again or even talk a lot til just iunno one ,two, three months ago? iunno yo. But I kinda noticed him more. Like I noticed he wasn’t an actual dick. Okay like the hype beast shit thingy that he denies thats gay. other than that he’s fun to be around and such. makes me miss before

He’s a good friend. Just bad at picking his chicks. JOKKKKINGGG. I happen to miss elementary with Shirley, Alyssa, Tony, Owen, Adut, Achok, Arrah. etc. you know the jizz. I’m an ass to him fuck. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID THAT. anywho Iunno hopefullly we continue to be bestfriends for another nine years + yol0 LOOOL. okay that is all.

      If we keep saying we all hate people. Acting like ruthless bastards that “don’t care.” That’s slowly gonna become reality, and if that does become reality.. Well, we’re all fucked. As people, we work together. Yeah, we’re very, very greedy. But we can be greedy together to create great things. 
     There are so many good quotes to live by. If you haven’t noticed, those quotes were said by people with great achievements. We should try our best to live up to become someone like that. I believe we are all intelligent individually. But sometimes we don’t use that knowledge in the right matter. Which is okay, because we learn that way, right? 

Yes, this is very jumbled. But to summarize what I’m saying.. Be more optimistic. With an optimistic mind you create goals and don’t give up.